Missing In Action

2011-11-24T16:23:00.007+08:00

Ive been mourning for like days and i suffered my self, i tortured my self, for the mistakes i did. which slapped me pretty badly.

It hurts, it does. I wish it would go away, but it didnt, sadly. Im kindda adapting myself to this.

Im shutting myself from any social networking, i dont need them to torture me, i can torture myself, soooo back off.

This anger runs in me, it gets me. It gets me to my nerve, to the top of it. Anger disappointment.

But it's ok. I will get up. I will, and be surprised.

Im lucky. Im lucky to encounter this bumpy roads, cause u know why? Cause im learning from it. Cause i believe that mistakes are the portals of discovery. It creates the better me.

Every knock back makes me stronger.

finger crossed.

@#$%

2011-11-19T18:50:00.000+08:00

Crying inside out.

when you laugh at your own jokes

2011-11-19T13:16:00.007+08:00

I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you.

Disappointment

2011-11-19T11:47:00.004+08:00

There's no one, not a single soul out there understands what im going tru right now and i dont blame them for that. However, it's good to know that there are somebody out there, friends, being there for you, telling u that u werent alone in this world.

This hurts me a lot. i deserved it. I know. Im not complaining, im just letting it out. I am thankful to have those people who were there for me tru thick thin regardless how wrong i was. How fucked up i was.

It is hard for certain people to forgive me, i totally understand, i get it. I dont blame u. I get it. It is even harder to forgive myself.

People are going to disappoint you, i get that, i kind of expect that but what happens if one day you wake up and realize you are the disappointment

Smile

2011-11-12T21:01:00.002+08:00

Here i am again, blogging, complaining, ranting? yes? no? owh shut up !

I am eventually settled down now. well, literally, yes.

1. I am now in my final semester, having my practical training at SCV ( google it ), ive got my result fr my prev semester, which i thought ill be sitting for it again. Fortunately, im not, so praise the Lord !

2. I am eventually meeting my soul mate as i reckon it. worth the wait. He is a wonderful person, yes he is ! To be frank, i never thought that ill be w this guy, but hey, expect the unexpected. Im a lucky woman, n he is the luckiest man? yes? exactly !

3. The Hottest is back. Happy.

4. In the process of fixing thing w udonthavetoknowwho.

5. Im wearing braces for like 2 to 3 years. Ill be the prettiest woman on earth (self-proclaimed) so shut ur mouth up !

The end.